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hello MARTIN,

YES~! YOU~! dont doubt it~! mr.Martin from PJCAD. it is a surprise that you have read my blog. As the owner of matsuru.net, I sincerely welcome you to my humble place. let me know if you have your own webpage, i will link to you.

Thanks~! looking forward on presentation day, 24th August 2005. Let’s give the students a day in HELL. hhehehehehe……..( joking ;P )

your’s sincerely,
MOK, the (evil) illustration lecturer >;D

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And i got a respond from him:-

Martin:
eeerrr why i hear my name being call……… yes mr mok, oh is u!
walau yeh…. don play play we are the best in PJ some say malaysia.. best regards.

时间，

一分一秒的来，
一分一秒的去。

嘀嗒嘀嗒嘀嗒。。

24个小时，
一天咯！

睡觉。

everytime i look into the mirror, i see myself.
who am i? where i came from? why am i here?
questions that have no answer.
Questions that will never be answered.

As i look into the mirror,
everyday, i grow older.
day by day, minute by minute,
bigger and bigger, smaller and smaller.

as i look into the mirror, i see me.
The one as it was yesterday,
the one as it is now,
the one as it will be tomorrow.

As i look into the mirror. i see a person.
whose past has made him what he is today,
Whose future has not yet decided.
But believe he is that one day, he will become someone.

the past determines today,
today determines tomorrow,
as i look into the mirror,
i saw myself, as great as it is today,
and so it will be, in the future.

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Internet is a vast place. Everytime i log on, i will see millions of people, millions of info. I am not alone in this world. Everyone is here, everyone is connected. We are not alone.
I met this person from Japan few weeks ago. As soon as we began talking, we talked non-stop. we talked about anything and everything. And she made me realized that i am not bad myself. I used to be an introvert, but after talking to her. I feel better, i feel great. she gave me courage, she gave me praise. she pointed out my good point and help me realised what i have in me. i would like to thank this person, Nakamura Yuuki-san, who made my life wonderful. Thank you very much.

I am an artist. I drew all kinds of things. such as, storyboards, animation background, visuals, paintings… the more i draw the more i realise that i am getting bored with my job. Maybe i did not work hard enough, maybe i need another achievement, improve myself up to another level. But i feel bored and weak and useless on my drawing. I feel my ability to draw is limited. Maybe i need to get my ass together and start drawing, MORE. yeah, i need that.

I have been working for myself for almost 5 years. Working for myself is truly something i enjoy to do all these while. But recently, i find that i have been slacking alot. I need to work harder. I need to find back my emotions when i first started drawing. Is it because the effort i have made doesn’t on par with my pay? I have been underpay? surpress by those hideous so call business people? How come my bank account have 0 savings after about 5 years of work? why havent i surpass monthly income of 5K? if i continue like this, how am i going to earn my first 10k monthly income. I need to change plan, and change fast.

another 3 years, i will be 30. woohoo~! talk about growing old. i wish that i will have my own dream house, my own dream car, a caring gf/wife, holiday 3 times a year without financial worry, can give monthly household fund of 1K each to my parents and all my brothers, to help people. is that too much to ask for in 3 years time. Nevermind, i work work for it. Yes i will~!

maybe i have been dreaming too much.

A person without a dream is a person who wont succeed.

I better dream.

A person who fail to plan is a person who plan to fail.

I must have a plan.

A person who dont work the plan is a person who daydream.

Daydream is nice but i would like to put it down on the ground.

1% talent, 99% hardwork

so, what am i waiting for. It’s time to get started~!

posted by matsuru at 8/09/2005 02:20:00 AM

I dunno why?
I dunno how?
i dunno what i have done?
i dunno what is wrong?

the path i walk,
the path i fall,
when i realize,
the journey is far too long.

where have all my friends gone?
why haven’t i grown strong?

why do i come to these places?
why burried myself in mazes?
bcoz i need more spaces?
bcoz…
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hmm…. alot of things happen in my life for the pass few months. so many that i cannot write everything down.
maybe i should be hardworking instead and write in daily basis.

so far so good.

i love my job as a part-time lecturer in PJCAD. all my students are lovely, obedient, hardworking and cheerful all the time.
There are times when they complain alot but there are also times when they really show me their effort and their best. This has really really inspired me alot to work harder and to teach them more. And i will do my best. I will teach them whatever i know watever i can.

Love is something that i have lost for a very very long time. Recently, i found love, in the air. flying, floating, bouncing all over me. I am more energitic and happy. bcoz of love, i have found my way of life. becoz of love, i love and be loved. thank you all very much.

my life change alot. learned alot of things, meet alot of frens. ( contradicting with my writing above ^^;;;; ) things that i have never imagine i would learn, frens that i would never imagine would know. I thank you all, for helping me out and for the great encouragement that you have gave me. thank you~!

To the people of ComicFiesta ( http://www.comicfiesta.com ) I know that you all have been working very very hard for the event. I want to wish you all best of luck. I believe that if you work hard, very soon, your efforts will be fruitful. ^^ I shall see you all at the event. Keep up all the good work guys~!

To my clients, partners and best friends. Thank you for all those wonderful jobs you have given me. I really really apreaciate them. Thank you for giving me a chance to work with you with your project. I have gained alot of knowledge and wisdom from all of you. Thank you for trusting a person who do not have much working experience then, but now because of you, i have gain precious experiences, that i can pass down to my cute students and guide them towards the right path. Thank you~!

My mom and dad. I know that i have not been a very good child, even til now, i still owe you both alot of things. loans, car loans….all your effort of bringing me up, worrying bout me when i came to KL alone, you showered me with your love every now and then. Thank you~! Papa and Mommy~! I will always love you~! ( give me some time to pay you back the car loan ya’ i am abit tight nowadays ^^;;; )

My fellow brothers, Be strong and brave~! Lung, i wish you good luck in finding a good job where your employers recognise your skills and you get whatever you are worth. Chin, Living alone is something we all have to face, be confident, Lung and me will be keep watching over you. Han, Please take care of Papa and Mommy for us for you are the only one who is staying with them. Please take great care of our grandfather. With little patience and hardwork, i bet you can score in your exam with flying colours and become the top students in your college. ohh~! before i forgot, i sincerely advice you to cut down your phone call abit, OK? ^^

With this, i shall end my passage.

” A sucessful person believe before he sees results; An unsuccessful person sees results, then only he believe”

Best of luck~!

posted by matsuru at 8/05/2005 02:10:33 AM

Weather: Hot + Rainny

Just finish a Comic project for Karangkraf Publishing. It is for their new magazine, KLIK, which will be published either mid or end of this month.

Started teaching Illustration at PJCAD. The only illustration lecturer there. wow, i feel suprior ;P

My Maybank current account still not up yet. I need to call them up and ask them why havent they set up my account which i had applied 1 month ago!

Time to continue repay debt to my parents. Been stop paying them for few months liao. I hope they dun get angry at me.

must work hard and earn more money. Money is getting smaller and smaller here. Expenses are getting higher. This makes life sucks~!

I got a new pet fish, a fighting fish. I shall call him Martin. He lives in an IKEA round shape vast i bought, situated beside my monitor. A sight for sore eyes after long hours of staring at monitor.

Time to do some spring cleaning. It is Spring time now, issit?

To everyone who came here and use to come here, i wish u all good health~! Drink alot of water and exercise often~! Thank you~!

The clock just strike 12am, 12 Jan 2004.

Happy birthday~!!!!!! It’s my birthday~!!! XDXD

–<@

Today is the BIG day. Made a last minute decision to treat my friends. After checking my deep hollow wallet, i’ve decided the few ultra-shortlisted lucky individuals. Manage to SMS them and after few calls and confirmation, manage to invite 9 people.

We met at the entrance of the exotic shopping mall of PJ, the one and only Sunway Pyramid. Half of the invited came on time, while the other half will be late. so, since the venue is not set yet, we decided to scout the place, looking for the perfect place to dine and chat.

McDonald’s? too common; KFC? nah…..pizza hut? perfect location, but been there too many times. Sushi King? err… we walked on and on, floor by floor, and came upon this place on top floor. It use to be a food court, but now, it has been converted into a souvenir shop, or more accurately, a large area that sells all kinds of souvenir.

We ( misao & BF, kiyaa, me ) tour the interesting place for almost an hour. looking through all the various interesting souvenirs sold. There are glass figures, hand bags, clothes, watches, stationery, spectacles, rings…etc. we have a great time discovering new products.

I snapped out of my little adventure to find out that it was getting late. My underage 16 years old but look like 18 friend have to obey her curfew. So, we quickly go thru the remaining floors and finally settle down with CABLE CAR RESTAURANT.

CABLE CAR RESTAURANT is a high class dining place. Judging from the beatiful interior design. It is nicely lit with a grand view of the beautiful Sunway Resort Hotel andSunway Lagoon. Its main delicacy is western food, with some local dishes added as side variety. after going thru the menu, we ended up ordering western food. While we were eating, my other guests arrived. thus, completed the invited guest list.

The food is OK. the price, above average. the portion, quite big. the results, stomach damn full; my wallet, almost empty. Nevertheless, we enjoyed our meal and have a fun time chatting.

I do received birthday present on that day. The only present, given by Misao & BF is a Chinese New Year theme paper weight. Well, another thing I consider as a present and a blessing is that I get to know a group of very good friends whom I share my life with. My life is always fun and cherished with them around.

Now that 26 years has passed, uncertain how many more are left. Maybe I should count my blessing instead of mourning my failures. Life is certainly better that way.

I closed my eyes as I was reminiscing my old days, slowly slipping into the realm of dreams, with a smiley face and a peaceful mind.

Happy 26th Birthday to me.

woo hoo~~!!! bye bye 2003~!!!! welcome 2004~~!!

it the 2nd day of new year. i’ve read other people’s blog,. most of them are making their new year resolutions. so i think maybe i should make my own resolutions also.

hmm…. my resolutions is 300dpi….XDXD nah…that’s another type of resolutions.

okok, my resolutions:-

personal
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01. sleep b4 2am, wake up b4 10am. total sleep = 8 hours
02. get to know more people, from all ages, races, jobs…etc.
03. routine exercise everyday for 15 minutes. =.=;;; this is hard.

04. get a girlfren?? nah…i dun think this can be achieve.
05. rm20,000 savings by end of yeaqr 2004. =.=;;; this is very very hard. but i will try.
06. clear my debt. i owe my parents some money.

07. get a car. gosh~~!!! this will add into my debt.><
08. paint a big family potrait. my dad has been giving out hints for many years. ><''
09. ...... wat else?

career
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01. publish a full colour art/story book. i've been trying to get this done for years.
02. produce full illustrated postcards.
03. get my work into GEMPAK. ><

04. teaching art. hmmm..will be doing this on FEB.
05. ....wat else?

personal needs and wants:-
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01. PS2
02. laptop computer
03. broadband internet connection
04. DVD player
05. more and more artbooks. wahahaha~~!!!
06. all digitally re-mastered ultraman DVDs~!!!
07. a bigger room. ^^ moving to master bedroom soon, after CNY.

share with u my life goal:-
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01. to be happy & contended with life/family/frens.
02. to be able to work as illustrator & comic artist without financial problem. ( & still have time to yumcha^^ )
03. to make the world a better place to live in.

my word of wisdom:-
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you will DIE anyday, ANYTIME. wat u wanna do, do it NOW.

ok. everything listed above may be change or modified from time to time without prior notice. you may use this new year resolution as a guide for you. no copyright notice needed. i will not be responsible for any injuries/misfortune happen to you by following the above resolutions. do it at your own risk. thank you.

& happy 2004~! cheers~!

I now sitted on board KLIA Transit Train, the only train that connects KLIA to mankind. Announcement had been made that in 2 minutes, I’ll be on my way towards the international Airport.

This is the first time I bought my own flight ticket. The feeling of excitement, anxiety and fear fill my heart. What will happen to me next? Waves and waves of thoughts showered through my mind non-stop as I passed by the city scape of our capital city.

MAS was what I had chosen. Why MAS? Some of you may ask. Well, I am embarass to tell you that I have made a last minute choice. It’s Deepavali! All bus tickets have been sold out. So I have to fly instead. But why MAS? Ohh, MAS was the second flight service company I stumbled on after Airasia. Being a lazy me, I looked no further and booked the ticket as soon as I’ve found out that the was an available flight. XP

Besides, MAS is out national flight service provider. Being a Malaysian, we should support our own product, shouldn’t we?

Talking about flying, the first flying experience I had was when I was in standard six…hmm… slightly more than that actually. It was after UPSR, my dad decided to bring the whole family to visit relatives who lives in Medan, Indonesia while touring the area. It was a dream come true for me. I had long awaited to place myself on board the gigantic flying metal. Boy! You can imagine how happy I was then.

The 911 news shocked everyone around the globe. Including me who was working on the computer while the TV is ON. It was like watching an action movie, LIVE, in the real world. The worst tragedy I have ever seen. If I were on board those planes, I would be terrified to death even before it pludged into the floors of The World Trade Centre.

Speaking of which, I was going to be on board an airplane, heading home sweet home, the Pearl of the Orient, Penang.
Wish me luck! and I shall see you again next time! ^^

( written on board KLIA Transit on 22 oct 03 )

It was a clear Sunday Afternoon when I received a phone call from Misao, asking me where and when to meet.

“Hello! Matsuru, I am Misao…..”
“Ohh… har…Hi ^^; ” hmm…. not quite the kind of voice I had expected; a bit ‘wild’ and outgoing…
“So, what time and where u wanna meet?”
“Where are you now?” The background was kind of noisy, as if she was in wet market.
“I am at Chee Cheong Kai-lah” she was in PJ Street.
“ohh ok!” glancing at my watch, which told me it was 1.35pm,”I’ll meet you at Pyramind, 3pm”
“OK..” she agreed. She should have enough time to finish off her shopping and take a bus ride down to Sunway.

I continued my work after the call. Yes, I was working on Sunday, racing against time to finish off the school book illustration by 2pm. Luckily, I managed. Took a quick shower and finished decorating myself a little bit at about 2.30pm, it was time to head to Egypt…I mean Pyramid.

On foot, I was 5 minutes earlier when i arrived at the main entrance, the meeting spot. Looking around the place trying to see whether Misao has arrived. Nope, not yet. Then, my attention was caught by some noise inside the shopping mall. I walked in and was greeted by Sheila Majid!!!

Nope, not in person-lah! ^^ There was an event going on on the LL1 centre hall. An attempt to registered itself as most hair-dying job done in 3 days in Malaysia book of Records. Well, they succeeded in registering my Malaysia Boleh records of stupid attempts though.Off topic, will blog about this later.

Ms.Sheila Majid was the guest of honor for the event. She was speaking on behalf of the hair-dye product and was singing “Aku cinta padamu”. I managed to take few pictures of her from the ground floor.

I checked my phone to find out that I got a miss call from Misao and an SMS stating that she missed her bus and will be late. OK, now i have all the time i needed to watch Sheila Majid. After about 15 minutes wait, I got a miss call again. She had finally arrived.

The first thing that came into my mind when i see her walking from the bus-stop towards me is “Have I dated a primary school kid?”
No, this is not an insult. Misao is really small in size. I have met her before on Axn Anime Fest. but at that time, she looks OK in her costume. This is the first time I saw her in plain clothings. Before I go on much further, I must let you know that Misao, is above 20 years old.

In my mind, Misao is a very quiet, soft-spoken kind of person. But in reality, she is the opposite. She is very active, spontenous, talkative, Laugh easily and not to mention, very cute indeed. My impression of her was smashed into zillion pieces of tiny little microns but soon after that, a whole new image of her starts to build up. That is, the real Misao, the person behind Haku in Axn Anime Fest.

We stepped into Delicious Kitchen, a chinese restaurant in Pyramind to have lunch. Actually, I am the only one eating while she watched. After that, we went to Anime Tech at LL3. After checking out some Animes, we walked around the mall floor by floor and finally settle down at Pizza Hut. We were talking all the while, from introduction on ourselves, Anime and manga to the most embarassing moments in our life. We were having lots of fun and laughter. Of course, being a Naruto Fan myself, we had quite a long conversation on the comic. I was being attacked by waves of persuation to cosplay as one of the characters.

After about 6 hours of meeting, we say good-bye to each other, only to find out that later that night, we meet again in cyber world. The results, none stop chat until 4 in the morning.

As a conclusion, I fully enjoy myself that day and I believe that she too had a great time, despite that she had pain cheeks for laughing too much.

It’s nice meeting you, Misao-chan. and we shall see each other again sometimes! Take care’